Thursday

... if it wasn't for the fact that I have to go to a concert with my brother tomorrow... I would be in a very very deep slumber right now, and it wouldn't have even hurt that bad. Oh and I didn't want Brit to find me... Guess my plans for the evening have been ruined. hahahaha...

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Fuck.. Need To Write Something

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I'm just really scared


I'm tired of all the bad things that happen.
I'm tired of being stressed out
and tired
and sick
and worried
and scared
and stressed
and worried
and scared
and sick
and scared
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I want Mom to be okay
and I want to be able to pay rent next month
and I want to stop feeling horrible
and I want Roger to leave me alone
and I want to sleep
I want to not dream for a night
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I want to learn to play an instrument
I want to learn to love myself
I want to learn that it'll be okay
I want to learn how to love people
I want to learn a new language
I want to go back to school
I want to find a place to find hope
I want to give up
I want to run away
I want to learn to live

So I really haven't been doing a whole lot other than work, playing The Sims and watching You Tube vidjeo's... So I thought I'd just go ahead and share some of the people that I subscribe too ---

=3 - Ray William Johnson
Equals 3 is a wonderful, funny channel, it's great - I have nothing more to say, just watch it. You'll love it.

Breaking NYC - Ray William Johnson
This is the same guy that does =3 - it's his personal Vlog which is just as interesting, in a totally different way. He's a eally col guy, check out his shit.

Uhm.. actually- that's it, really... Just those two - if you want to check out his roommates Vlog it's on his page - The Will of DC -- and his friend Tessa - Meekakitty. I don't think they're as good, really... but you might find them interesting, so go for it. Watch a couple episodes and decide for yourself or whatever.

To be honest, I'm kinda thinking of starting my own Vlog thing, maybe... We'll see.