Harley David Quinn

This is Harley - the newest addition to our house.

She was living behind mom's house for about two weeks when it started getting cold, so when nobody came to pick her up, she called me and my roommate.

Huzzah - Kitteh!

Many loves.


Funky Cat Maybe ..?

So my mother is going back to the hospital today... I hope they find whatever is killing her.

Five years -- FIVE YEARS -- of fucking doctors visits and they can't figure it out. On the plus side she has grounds for a lawsuit on her las doctor who simply put her on anti-depressents and said "It's all in your head".

All I know is that with the amount of pain she's in she doesn't even get out of bed anymore. Feels bad, man... I don't want my mom to die. I mean - she's not even 50 yet. This sucks.

My uncle went into the doctor the other day too, They found something on his lung. I'm fucking tired of the people I love dying off.

Grandma n Grandpa B.
Grandma and Grandpa C.

Sorry this post is so depressing, I just fucking hate everything today.

The roommate and I were talking last night, about being kids and playing and how all you want to do when you're little is grow up. I don't want to grow up anymore. I don't want to have to watch my parents get old and die. I mean, What do I have left once they're gone?

I have a whole total of about 3 friends left in this city. Maybe I will just run away with Angel when she goes. Maybe I'll start new like I did when I moved to BC.

but I LIKE living here.

I like our metal bar.

I like Sailor Dan and Guitar Man Matt and Homeless Steve

Fuck It.

Here's a cute Video.

^_^ I love it heh


Let Me Vent

1. My iTunes no longer works with my ipod, in that my ipod no longer syncs or is even noticed by iTunes. Fuck you apple.

2. Bought a new camera, does not come with SD card. Fuck you Polaroid.

3. My ex messaged me again. Fuck you too.

4. Work called me off, I made zero money today. Fuck you boss.

5. My cat just groped my roommates boob.
7. I love you too ghostie baby *love*



Crow -- Plan on getting it on my back...
Text I plan on getting on my side
Spider Jerusalem (Transmetropolitan) Probably on the back of my leg

Anyway... my question to you is... Which one should I spend my hard earned moneys on first??


Filth Hi

the yellowish greedy bugs are my frustrated sympathizers
the rotten apple in my gastric juices.
won't you try some of the soup of sexual desire
The dripping pink maggots soaked in the Formaldhyde of Sadistic Desire
The rotten strawberry down in there
A sour marinee prepared with blood
~ Dir En Grey

So I was snooping through some of my old blogs/journals/websites... and came across a bunch of pictures from Highschool. It was pretty crazy to see after all these years. I don't talk to half those people anymore... Hell, I don't talk to any of those people anymore. Forgot about a bunch of em.

I realize this post is kind of pointless to some of you who read the blog, but still - just wow, looking back and seeing how much I've changed since then. I went from Baby-goth, to fake wanna-be Raver chik, to Prep and metal head and everything else in between and it's just strange to look back and be like "Why the fuck did I think that looked good!?"

I thought I knew everything back then, I though I had my whole life planned out! I was going to own a coffee shop in Singapore and teach english. And now... now i'm still in my same little city, hanging out at the same dingy metal/rock bar with the same coke freaks and druggies that have always been there.

Surprisingly... I'm content with my life though. Right now - sitting in a gross bar with gross people drinking overpriced beer and rum, listening to metal and Industrial Music is exactly where I want to be. I'm not so sure my parents are proud.

"My folks don't know I live this way
and I'm scared to say, but
This might be my life"
~Pop Debris

I'm SURE some of you (all of you) have changed since your highschool years. And I can't be the only one who's content with being what society conciders to be a 'failure'...


Old Cartoons

The roomie went out on a date, so It's just me and The kitten, Harley, Tonight and I though whats better that watching a movie or good cartoon When I found this little Gem saved on a disk my brother sent me a few years back...

Now THIS was a damn good, creepy, fucking cartoon! Someone else has got to remember this.

Pop Debris

Fairly unknown band that I really like --- Pop Debris

You Ain't From Around Here Lyrics

The Rain Held Off
but I Think Its Coming Now
and You Came To Try
and Pull Me From This Place Where I Fell Down
just Hear Me Out
before You Waste Your Time And My Time Too
movement Starts To Hurt
there Ain't Nothing You Can Do

cause You Ain't From Around Here
what Do You Know Of Sin?
i Was Broken When You Found Me
and Nothings Changed Since Then
but You Ain't From Around Here
don't Come Back Again

just Close Your Eyes
and Click Your Heels For Me
think Of All The Tears
you'll Get To Cry On National Tv
now Take Off Your Clothes And Be Of Use Or Leave And Let Me Be
movement Starts To Hurt
there Ain't No Such Thing As Free

cause You Ain't From Around Here
what Do You Know Of Sin?
i Was Broken When You Found Me
and Nothings Changed Since Then
but You Ain't From Around Here
don't Come Back Again

cause You Ain't From Around Here
what Do You Know Of Sin?
i Was Broken When You Found Me
and Nothings Changed Since Then
but You Ain't From Around Here
don't Come Back Again

Give em a listen - you just might like it!

and on one occasion had 40 pizzas delivered to her home anonymously.

Thought this might be something a couple of you might find interesting...

Cyberstalking is to be treated far more seriously after new guidance was unveiled by the Crown Prosecution Service (CPS).

Over a million women and 900,000 men are stalked in the UK every year, according to the British Crime Survey.

But this figure may omit thousands harassed online, through e-mail or on social networking sites like Facebook.

MEP Liz Lynne has called on the EU for tougher legislation to ensure European-wide standards on tackling stalking.

The CPS's community liaison director, Nazir Afzal, said the new guidance to prosecutors was the first time stalking - and cyberstalking in particular - had been officially recognised.

'Fear and trepidation'

Mr Afzal said: "Stalkers steal lives, that was the message I picked up from speaking to victims. Victims stop trusting those they know and every stranger is seen as a threat.

"People often can't answer the phone, receive texts or go to a familiar place without fear and trepidation. We want to give people their lives back."


  • Communicating with the victim by email
  • Damaging the victim's reputation online
  • Identity theft
  • Using the internet for surveillance of the victim
  • Tricking other internet users into harassing or threatening the victim

Ms Lynne, MEP for the West Midlands, said: "The crime of cyberstalking has exploded across Europe with the growth of the internet and social networking sites.

"It is not just celebrities who attract stalkers, nor is it just something that affects teenagers."

The Network for Surviving Stalking is launching a survey on Friday in an attempt to find out how many people have been stalked or harassed online and what sort of experiences they faced.

Mr Afzal said individually some actions - such as sending persistent e-mails - would not be sufficient to be described as cyberstalking, but evidence of a sustained campaign should be seen in the context of the "bigger picture".

He said the number of prosecutions of stalkers was only in the hundreds.

Mr Afzal said: "We know we should have done better at this in the past. We need those affected by this crime to know that we have listened carefully to concerns raised by victims and stalking support groups, and we recognise how serious and distressing this behaviour can be."

He gave an example of one case - which is currently under investigation - in which a woman was stalked by a man purporting to be the late serial killer Harold Shipman.

Mr Afzal said the man had falsely claimed in an internet forum that the woman's husband was a paedophile - causing him such distress that he had two strokes - and on one occasion had 40 pizzas delivered to her home anonymously.

Alexis Bowater, chief executive for the Network for Surviving Stalking, welcomed the new guidelines.

She said: "This will go a long way to improving the lives of victims and to making sure that perpetrators are treated appropriately by the courts. Recognising, in particular, new forms of stalking such as cyberstalking is ground breaking."


Isn't it Funny

Isn't it funny how Hello
Is allways accompanied with Goodbye
It's funny how Good memories
Can start to make you Cry
It's funny how Forever
Never seems to really Last
It's funny how much you'd lose
If you Forgot about your Past
It's Funny how "friends"
Can just Leave you when your Down
It's funny how when you need someone
They're never around...
It's funny how people change
and think they're So Much Better
It's funny how so many lies
can be packed into One Love Letter
It's funny how people forgive
When they can Never Forget
It's funny how One Night
Can contain so Much Regret
It's funny how Ironic life turn out to Be
But the funniest part of all
is how none of that
Is Funny to me.

~~ Author Unknown

Fossils of new species

Scientists have unearthed two new species of giant plant-eating horned dinosaurs in southern Utah, US.

The creatures lived on the "lost continent" of Laramidia in the Late Cretaceous period, some 68 to 99 million years ago.

Laramidia was formed when a shallow sea flooded part of what is now North America and separated the eastern from the western parts.

The findings were published in the journal PLoS ONE.

The newly found dinos lived in the subtropical swampy environment about 100km from the seaway that split the ancient continent in two.

They were close relatives of the dinosaur Triceratops, and belonged to the family known as ceratopsians. "Ceratops" means "horned face" in Greek.


Now this next comment could get me into trouble - however;

I've heard some people of a certain religion saying that Dionosours do not exist, never existed, and 'God' put the bones there to test their fate.

Comments on that? Personally - I think bullshit. If your that nieve, shoot yourself. I don't say this simply because of my disbeleif in god, but because you'd have to be an idiot to think that we have been the only living lifeforms on the planet. I mean, really -- c'mon people.

Anyway, I'm going to sign out before I get in too much trouble. but yeah - tell me your opinion on that one.

Katt Williams

Just read a blog that reminded me of this Vid!

Katt Williams is absolute pure love.

The Day

Spent the day doing absolutly NOTHING (!!) Went to the doc hoping I had Cancer or HIV or something - no such luck. Still not dying. Just lazy and kind of useless. Stayed home from work again because of Migranes and stomach pain that are honestly probably caused by myself for no particular reason.

woke up at two o'clock read, blogged, make tea and coffee and havn't moved from my computer since, save to go onto the deck while my roommate had a smoke. It's really kind of sad.

I don't have a choice but to go to work tomorrow, which sucks, but it's worth it, I guess - maybe. I dunno. Need the money, so yeah It's worth it.

anyway, I don't really feel like complaining and being moody and bitchy and sad - So I'ma end this here, but I'll probably post again before the night is through as there really is nothing else for me to do today but look at blogs and news and shit so...


Peace <3

Something Interesting

Spray on Clothing anyone?

What an odd concept eh?

I found it kind of cool though. A thing of the future indeed... though a bit confusing, and from what I've read, woman you best be wearing a bra if you want to use this or... well Lets just the spray of fibres is quite cold when it come out of the can, and that could be rather embarrasing.

Also, I have a feeling skirts and dresses could be a bit hard to make.




think of the children!
oh gimme a break, I've spent *hours* today thinking of the children, my wrist is too sore to do it any longer


lemonlimeskull: One guy keeps following me from chat room to chat room begging to blow me because he found out I live about a half hour away.
lemonlimeskull: Other guy wants to fight me IRL because I posted on a forum that his local band sucks ass.
lemonlimeskull: I'm going to agree to meet the two of them - same location at the same time.
lemonlimeskull: I won't show up, of course - tomorrow one guy will be in the hospital or the other one will be a lot more mellow.
lemonlimeskull: Will keep you posted.


JxJ: im sleepy and I need something to pick me up, what should I drink?
GCa: Well, a can of coke has about 45 mg of caffeine. A shot, about 90. 8oz drip coffee 180-220. Ice coffee ~250+.
GCa: These are estimates, btw
GCa: My ultimate pick-me-up drink was an iced venti coffee with no ice, add two-three shots, a couple pumps of syrup and top it with cream
GCa: Then I would slam it... INSANE amounts of caffeine
GCa: Approx 16oz (you can get 32oz now) of iced coffee (500mg)+3 shots (270mg)= 770 mg of caffeine, or the equivalent of 17 cans of coke at once
GCa: I used to pull up allnighters on that stuff just to ace finals. never failed anything.
Dorne: shit, at that point caffeine is basically coke
GCa: Don't try to drive while on that.
JxJ: what the hell was your major?
GCa: english


apparently "my dealer got arrested" is not an acceptable answer when mom asks "What happened? You look sad today"


Curt teh Juggler: our graduation ceremony was today, and right when some gamer nerd got his diploma, someone in the audience played the zelda "get item" music and he did the zelda spin-hold-out-item stance
Curt teh Juggler: it was quite possibly the most amazing thing ever.

Yet another Quiz

Your Name?

Twiggy is a goddess. Twiggy is the leader of all that is cool and will be cool. Twiggy is famous for no reason. Don't ask no questions. Do not defy twiggy, or you'll get fuckered up. Thanks.

Your Age?
The age after 21 where you realize you still have another 3 years to get your shit together

Your Best Friend?
A poor or negligent parent. (sorry brit)

The girl who makes your heart jump when she enters the room.
The girl who breaks it as she leaves.

The girl you'll need for a long time, wherever you go.

What should You be Doing?
The act of shoving everything in a closet and calling it decent.

Your favorite Color?
1.Darkness, a dark colour, the colour of this text is black. 2.A race - The black race can range from African american to polynesian.

Your Birthplace?
Saskatoon is the largest city in Saskatchewan, it is located roughly in the middle of the province. It only has approximately 215,000 people which makes it rather small compared to other Canadian cities. However, it is not the capitol city that goes to Regina which is located 2 hours south. Saskatoon is a city divided between east side(middle class) and west side(ghetto). The city is home to the University of Saskatchewan. It is a relatively good place to live i.e. not too small not too big. Temperatures range from -30c to +30c so the weather can be extreme.

If you ever find yourself in Saskatoon be careful of the police they are known to drop people off outside city limits where you might just freeze to death, if it is winter.

Month of Your Birthday?
The month in which the most babies are born. And which, by chance, is exactly nine months after February.

Last Person You talked To?

Your Nickname?
A handsome yet conflicted sole, on the brink of panic at all times. A ladies man with no game. Lives for the party, but is not the life of the party.

And another Quiz

00. First off, what is your name?
Twiggy Karyl Stanton

99. Why were you named that?
Not Really sure, Ask my parents

98. Who is your best friend?
Britney or Angel <3 Many loves to them both. They are always there for me no matter what!

97. Do you have any siblings?
I do - My brother Dylan and Angel is like my sister <3 forever forever

96. Are your parents together/divorced/separated?
Divorced and re-maried (yay I have 4 parents)

95. Favorite color?
Black and Neon green

94. Who is your favorite NFL team?
Roughriders (only because I live in Sask... yeah I know they suck)

91. Who sits behind you in 2nd period?
Graduated Bitches!!!

90. Who sits to the left?

89. Where is your mom right now?
At her house, probably in bed, or making coffee for her and my step dad. or amybe watching TV. Yeah - her morning schedual is always the same... OR no - WAIT - she's at the doctor this morning...

88. Do you have any kids?
Nope, thankfully.

87. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
I do not own a telephone of any sort at all at the moment.

86. Closest black object?
My desk/clothing

85. Closest silver object?
The ring on my finger or the change on my desk lol

84. Have you ever jumped a fence running from a cop?
Not yet...

83. Do you sing in the shower?
hahah no, our walls are really thin. I don't want anyone to hear my awful singing hahaha

82. Do you have any pets?
A snake, Heroin, and a cat, Harley David Quinn

81. How does your hair look right now?
Mess unkempt, black, short in the back, long in front, bangs.

80. Last time you listened to country music?
Ermmm.... no idea.

78. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
You, maybe?

77. What are your fears?
Ghosties, being left behind, being forgotten, another one of my friends killing themselves, loosing my Mom to whatever disease it is she has that the doctors keep not finding. :(

76. Do you still pee your pants?
Uhm... eww...

75. What do you hear right now?
Melody sleeping on our couch, my typing, cars outside.

74. How many drugs are in your system right now?
Tylenol and Antianxiety pills.

73. What kind of drunk are you?
Happy, bubbly, confident

72. What are you wearing?
Black bunnyhug, t-shirt, black baggy pants, black socks... black black black

71. Last person you commented?
Ermm... fucked if I know? I don't keep track of that shit.

70. Do you sing?
hahaha Sadly, yes. I'm in a 'Band' Gnomedelic.... we suck, we really really suck.

69. Single or Taken?
Single, fairly happy about it. Last guy I dated I found to be married so....

68. Screamo or Country?
Screamo I guess

67. Rock or Rap?
Rock for sure, but some Rap is Okay

66. chocolate or vanilla?
Chocolate as a general rule...

65. who did you last call?
no-one.. No phone, remember...

64. Who last called you?

63. What jewelry do you wear daily?
A ring my mom's ex boyfriend found on the floor of The Wash and Slosh. Been wearing it everyday for the last like.. seven years. Never taking it off, ever.

62. Are you happy right now?
Happy? not sure... content, yes.

61. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
Britney, when we were outside. I say I love you to all my friends, all the time. They mean the world to me.

60. Would you die for someone?

59. If so, who?
My brother, my family, Angel and Britney. I wouldn't even think about it.

57. Are you cold right now?
Naw, it's pretty warm in our house today.

58. What do you smell right now?
Coffee and cigarette smoke... kinda gross mixture. The coffee smells good though.

56. Do you have to pee right now?
Nope, just went :P

55. What did you do last night?
Hung out at the Big Brown Beast with Nylan, Angel, Brodie, Amanda and Mike... or Mark... or some M name. Was a good time. Angel just moved in there. Pretty good deal - they are all awesome people.

54. What are you doing tommorow?
Working, sadly. But Meh...

53. If an ex asked you back out, would you say yes?
... I'm not really sure.

52. Do you pick your nose?
sometimes if I can't breath and theres nothing to blow my nose with.

51. Do you cuss?
Fuck You

50. Bedsheet color?

49. Wall color?

48. Carpet or wood in your room?
Grey Carpet

47. Do you cut your own veggies?
. wtf? uhmm... yeah?

46. Wildest rumor you've ever heard about yourself?
Toooooo many.

45. Do you have makeup on right now?
Nope, don't usually put makeup on unless Im going out.

43. Are you shy?
Sometimes, depends on my mood and who I'm with. I'm getting better at not being shy though.

41. Can u do a cartwheel?
hahahah not even a little bit.

40. Favorite ice cream?
Cherry!!! or Bubblegum!! or NO Wait TIGER TIGER! that shit's the best!

39. Ever gone a whole day without eating?
Yeah, it happens.

38. America or Canada?
Canada Eh

37. What makes u mad?

36. What if you found out you were adopted?

35. Jeans or Sweatpants?
I'm getting really bored of this quiz thing. I'm gonna stop now.

Somwtimes life hands you $100 and five shots of Whiskey

Okay, so maybe that wasn't life that handed me the $100, that was Wal-Mart, but I had basicly written that money off because I never thought I would actually be getting it. The Whiskey on the oter hand...

Well, I was waiting for my bus the other day, standing out in the cold and rain and wind when out of no-where this chika comes up to the bus stop and starts harassing people. Whatever, I just turned away because she was kinda cute and looked like "one of us" so by all means chika, harass whoever you want.

She must have seen me turn away because all of a sudden she's standing behind me, "Well you're just a bitch, eh?" and she kinda giggles so I turn back around and start laughing like wtf? and she hands me a two litre and goes "It's straight whiskey, don't make me drink alone."

So whatever, fine, a couple shot's of whiskey before work isn't going to hurt. and we get to talking and apperantly she's a waitress at the irish pub not to far from my house. Well - that is indeed and exciting prospect. a couple more shots before the bus comes and I'm on my way to work.

All in all it was a good morning of harassing bus stop people, meeting cute chika's and drinking whiskey and getting money.

Now I need to find someone to go to Dublins with me so I can try to get her number.

Wish me lucks. ;)


I'm still bored, there is still nothing to do. So this is my third blog post today and none of it has been even remotly interesting or important.


Thinking of playing Sims 3 for a while, but I dunno. Watched Alice in Wonderland for the first time today. It was really good! I rather enjoyed it. Maybe I'll escape to my room and watch another movie? Probably not.

The dishwasher is almost finished which means it's almost time for me to cook supper for the roomie and I.

Mmmmm PASTAGETTI with butter and salt :)


Homesick Abortion

This is an excerpt from one of my favorite stories of all time...

hope you enjoy it as much as I do hahahah ..

I think I'm probaby going hell, aren't I?

Once, I was asked if I believed in karma. It was by some chick I had just been telling that her parents had gotten a divorce because of her stupidity. She was crying when she asked it, and told me I was going to get reborn as a grub and then struck by lightning. She then ran away before letting me answer.

Of course I believe in karma. In fact, I'm a very intricate part of the system: I like to deal out some karma myself. Or at least neo-karma – people now-a-days have no patience for old-fashioned karma where you had to get reborn and shit like that. Neo-karma is all about speed. No one doesn't deserve what I do or say to them. You were a fucking bitch in high school and cheated on your boyfriend. Thirty years later, your son gets in a car accident and dies. You visit his roadside grave every week to appease your own guilt while at the same time planning to adopt some kid from Pakistan. One day you visit the grave and there's this picture of a burning stranger and stomped on flowers. Expensive flowers. And say you're a horrible little brat that always gets what you want, when you want it, and you start doing meth. When your parents find out, you refuse to go to counseling because you're 18 and they can't make you. A year later, your parents get a divorce, and they tell you it wasn't your fault. Well I'm here to tell you it was you fucking fault. You tip a waitress well, and she uses that money to buy heroine from the fucker that gives your wife AIDS – so you divorce the cheating slut and marry a single mom nurse and make a real fucking home for once. But then you later forget to send your dying wife a birthday card and write her out of your will, so your step son starts to get kicks from being a sick fuck and hides your invitation to her funeral. You don't pay that Salvation Army guy in front of the store so you slam your fingers in the car door. You make fun of vulnerable people and you get diabetes. Fucking karma at its fucking greatest.

And I'm proud to say I'm part of the neo-karma system everyone's so excited about. The school gets rid of tag because a kid might be inadequate or they discourage auditions because it could make a kid feel inferior, or they make encouraging posters and post them in the hallways and tell the ugly fat kids that everyone's beautiful and it's the inside the counts. If a kid can't play tag because he wheezes from the asthma he got from his parents smoking, he deserves to fucking know he's an unhealthy fucktard freak and should give up any plans he had about being a professional sports player. And if you can't fucking act, you deserve to know not to quit your fucking day job. My part in the neo-karma system is to tell people second place really is for losers, that we've all made second place, and that it's too late to advance because the race is already over. That there is no such thing as "an individual" and that no matter how hard you try to get to the top of that mountain, you're going to have to make your fucking way down again, and get a knee injury on the fucking way.

That it really is the outside that counts, and that's why they made job interviews. That calling a skinny anorexic 'fat' is worse than calling a fat anorexic 'fat', but telling an ugly person they're ugly is worse than telling a hot person they're ugly – but still as satisfying. That there is not such thing as being 'big boned,' you're just fat. That if you think its your fault, it probably is – and if you don't think its your fault, you're a conceited slut. And that I don't fucking care that the commercial says cholesterol runs in your family, there's no excuse for you to eat that cheesecake, you obnoxiously fat slut – but there's also no excuse for me not to eat it in front of you, bitch.

Oh Dear

I have absolutly nothing to write about - but I want to write... was thinking of doing a movie review, but now I'm too lazy. That's pretty pathetic isn't it?

Life seems to be sort of turning around for me now, which is good.

I have two jobs, housekeeping, and another apartment cleaning job. But they both pay very well and I'm quite happy with where I am in my life right now. Found out I'm hypoglicemic which is well... whatever, really. Doesn't make that much of a diference to my life so I don't really care. On the other hand I also found out I weigh a whole total of 83 pounds and wow... yeah - not so healthy at all.

The doctor (yes I have a new family doctor and she's actually working on finding out why I'm loosing so much weight which is awesome!) Anyway, my doctor gave me some meal suplements that I'm supposed to take with my food, but - even though I have been drinking them, eating three meals a day - I've lost a pound and a bit. Which I know seems small, but when you only weigh 83 pounds loosing anything is a bit worrysome.

I'm also back on antianxiety drugs which is great. Needed them so very badly. I'm getting back to feeling like a normal human being which is great :)

I'm thinking of getting back to work writing on some stories, or working on a comic. I need an outlet of some type.

Also, my music folder is failing me, if anyone has any new music that they want to share with me that would be awesome, because I'm really really getting bored with my colection.

Oh, and the roomie and I gotted outselves a wee beasty - her name is Harley David Quinn. Yay... most loving cuddly cat I've ever met in my life and she is amazing. One day when I get my camera working again I'll have to put up some pictures of her.

Sorry this post is so boring and useless - I'll get back into the swing of things again soon. promise. :)